This blog has been a long time in the making. I've made efforts in the past, only to have
them fizzle from the start. And so, I
have waited. And waited. Trying to figure out God’s plan, only to keep
putting it off as the timing hasn’t been right.
I’ve shared various blog ideas with my husband; plans to sell my crafts
online, plans to share the things I have made.
Plans to do with me. And, yet,
again, the time wasn’t right. Neither
was the plan.
Then, a year or so ago, I felt God’s leading. Again, I put it off due to the many excuses
of balancing being a wife, motherhood,
illness and just being busy. Then, on my
42nd birthday, we received the news that our landlord was selling
the home we had lived in for over 5 years, causing us to leave amazing friends and
neighbors, and ultimately moving an hour away from home. Thankfully, we moved closer to my husband’s
work. But, we are no longer close to
church, schools or friends. And it’s
been a hard road. We are renting the
home of my dreams, but haven’t made many friends in the past 8 months. We’ve added gymnastics classes, youth groups,
etc. to our schedule and are slowly beginning to reach out to others. Being the introvert that I am, this is
HARD. I’m much better staying home and
being quiet. My 8 year old daughter,
however, has never met a stranger.
Everyone is her friend, despite the fact she can’t remember anyone’s
name. And so I have been forced to step
out of my comfort zone.
Enter the gentle nudging of God’s plan again. Instead of being about me, I began to realize
that God’s plan was much different than my own.
My husband has often told me I have the gift of encouragement, but I
wasn’t using it fully. Again, I let fear
stand in the way. Many years ago, before
I had children of my own, I used to write letters. I would send verses to friends and church
members as God led me to. I stopped, out
of fear of offending someone.
Fast forward 20 or so years and a week ago. I sat in Starbucks with Richard and poured
out what I felt God was leading me to. A
blog of encouragement. Not only to
encourage others, but also to encourage you to reach out and encourage
others. But, I am afraid, again. Afraid of failure, of not following
through. I had decided not to follow
through, as what if I’m the only one reading this? What if I wasn’t able to reach out to
anyone. And then my husband came home
last Sunday and said that God had confirmed to him that I am supposed to step
out. And I cried in fear and
relief. To have the confirmation of God
and my husband was what I had been seeking for so long.
One of the greatest women in my life was Margarita. She knew more Bible verses than anyone I
know. She knew everyone’s birthdays,
anniversaries and other special occasions.
Even when she couldn’t personally hand-write notes herself, she had
friends and sisters in the Lord who would write them for her. These notes were treasured by many and all
felt God’s love through Margarita. So,
as I move forward, it is in her memory that I press on.
My prayer for you is that God will use me to help you
encourage one another. Each week, I plan
on encouraging you to reach out to someone with a note, a call or even a
text. It doesn’t have to be fancy, just
from your heart. To God be the glory
forever and ever. Amen.